Letting Go of an Online Friend

I was dying for something deeper,
and one night in my pretend world
you saw me standing nervously,
and we stayed up two nights
in a row.

I was a fledgling and you
promised to teach me to be
better, and that you and I would
find a community together.

You needed freedom,
but my personality is selfish
and I enjoyed when you took the
time to be with only me.

I miss the song suggestions,
the vacant promises, when you
would try to flirt with me, and
I would hold it back.

It happened so suddenly that
I forgot to mark the time,
but I am so used to growing attached
and separating, that it hasn’t bothered me like this….

Once, I had a serious relationship
through screens and keyboards,
and finally lost touch forever, but
it didn’t hurt like this does.

I think I will always be the one
who is more serious about everything,
and you will play around
even though it’s not fulfilling.

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4 thoughts on “Letting Go of an Online Friend

  1. “It happened so suddenly that
    I forgot to mark the time,
    but I am so used to growing attached
    and separating, that it hasn’t bothered me like this….

    Once, I had a serious relationship
    through screens and keyboards,
    and finally lost touch forever, but
    it didn’t hurt like this does.”

    This poem speaks to me. Thank you so much for writing this.

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    • Sorry, I meant to respond, and it has been a crazy week. I struggled to find the words to say this. Thank you so much! I really love that people can relate to anything I say (half of the time, I don’t even know what I mean.)

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